I never want to conform to societies ways, that has never been me and never will be; I like being free and my own person. Too many people doing things because it’s what they think they should be doing or because that’s what they have been told. I don’t want to be like that, I want to totally own my life knowing that I am in control and that everything I do is because I want to.
I’m always questioning everything and I think because I do have a strong opinion on different issues people find me different or weird. Things that are supposedly meaning to help my life, like school, I find hard to understand because it doesn’t help. The education system is so messed up; the government care more about some grades on a piece of paper then our mental health and I think that is outrageous! The pressure put on students is ridiculous; having mental breakdowns because the workload is too much! This is not a quality of life! School/college is such a small part of our lives and I don’t think it should be made to feel like it’s everything. So what if you fail that exam you can do it again, so what if you’re late to class you can catch up. These things aren’t the end of the world; we have this one life don’t spend it worrying on things that aren’t really that big in the long run. You may decide that you don’t want to carry on doing the course your on and that’s okay we have time, don’t settle! I have spoken to so many people who have changed their paths so many times and don’t even regret it, they talk about all the friends they have made and all the memories they have created and you suddenly realise it’s not about the destination but more about the journey.
I want to tell amazing stories to my children and do incredible things with my life and not just spend it worrying. I don’t want to settle, I don’t want the normal life and just doing the same boring routine each day. I want adventure, fun, crazy memories and to actually live my life to the full because we all talk about it but some never do it and I think that’s sad because we only have this one life.
Being sensitive in such a hard world is tough! Everything gets to you and you tend to cry and show emotion a lot. I don’t think this is a bad thing; I think anyone who does feel deeply and shows emotion is extremely brave. They feel the world and although it can be wonderful it is very judgemental. Your feelings are valid! Show emotion at every possible moment you can; tell someone why they hurt you, cry because your favourite TV character died. Society has created ideas of what we should show emotion at and I think that’s wrong if you feel a certain way, express it! You are not weak if you show emotion, in fact, you are strong, so many people are afraid to.
Everyone is different so what they show emotion at is going to be different from you, you can’t expect people to have the same heart as you so be understanding.
Alice xo
Alice Woodward 