That’s the thing about people. They are unpredictable. You can give your all and it’s still not enough. Sometimes you won’t be enough for someone but that has nothing to do with you. I have learnt the only person you need to be enough for is you. People change and aren’t who you thought they were but I see this as a good thing. Let them show you their true colours because you don’t want to be with someone who doesn’t need you. My problem is I give my whole self to someone without asking if they want it. I can be too much for some and not enough for others. This has crushed me a few times. However, for the right people, you won’t have to burn bridges and convince them that you mean something because they will already know. So if you’re the only one fighting then give up. It’s not worth your energy.
Sometimes a break is needed. Putting your mental health first is so important. You’re not letting anyone down or giving up. You are simply recharging your batteries. I find it hard to let go and admit that maybe I need a bit of help. When you help others and are the strong one so to speak, it’s hard to admit as you think you can fix everything and do it all on your own. Asking for help is not weak! It’s actually one of the strongest things you can do. Sometimes you need to drown out all the noise and listen to what you want. I get so overwhelmed and want to fix everything and I’m guilty of beating myself up when things go wrong. It’s easy to point the finger at yourself when you see a consistent failure. However, some things aren’t meant to be and you can’t know all the answers. We are all human doing what we think is right and sometimes we mess it up and get things wrong but that does not make you a bad person. Other people’s opinions of you are not the truth. Sometimes others don’t understand the things you do because they simply aren’t you. They haven’t been through the things you have, felt the things you have. It’s so easy to judge but everyone has their reasons and I think it’s important to remember that. We aren’t all going to agree with the way someone leads their life or the things they do to cure their sadness. We all have shit, baggage, drama, sadness, anger and things we are all dealing with on a day-to-day basis. Don’t make someone else’s life harder because you don’t agree with it.
You don’t have to have your life sorted overnight. There is so much pressure to think you do but in reality, all that matters is that you love what you do. I have a new plan and the end goal is looking like University. Yeah, I know, me going to uni! AHA! I never thought I would say it out loud and dissed it a couple of times. Things change your mind changes. There are a few steps before I can achieve this I gotta retake a couple of things and do an access course. But I will get there. Not one plan is simple and everyone’s journey is so personal. That famous quote comes to mind “It’s not about the destination, it’s all about the journey.” It’s so true, the things you will learn, see and feel will help you grow into the person you are meant to be. I’m going to do media. I love my blog and what I do. I never would have discovered this if I hadn’t done that drama course and started this all up. Sometimes you take a few detours before you arrive at the place you are meant to be. It’s not going to be easy and there will be ups and downs but that’s the magic of life. The people you meet, the experiences and the life lessons will be the adventure. Just go with it and see what happens.
In whatever you do, do it because you love it and don’t be afraid to make mistakes as they are what makes you who you are. Believe in yourself!
Lots of love and happiness
Alice xo
Alice Woodward 