I have learnt a lot in 2019; about myself and others. A lot of people have come in and out of my life. Painful lessons have been learnt and people have left my life for the better. It’s not easy and I look back and I’m pretty glad the year has passed. I’m proud of myself for getting through it. I have battled so much with mental health and last year really damaged it. However, it’s a new year and a new decade and I’m in therapy.
I have learnt a lot about different types of people and how some are jealous, vindictive, using and unreliable. Meeting these types of people has grown me no matter how painful the experiences were. Some people are damaged themselves and don’t know how to control their emotions therefore take it out on others. Some are just bitter. Some are sad and lonely. No matter how you feel inside don’t take it out on others.. we are all fighting a battle.
Starting a new job last year overwhelmed me but made me stronger. Seeing sides to friends that I never saw before broke my heart but made my skin a little thicker. I only feel sorry for the ones who betrayed me as they lost a friend who wouldn’t of hurt them. However, they are going through a journey themselves and you have to respect their growth.
I’m learning to be smart with my time and not give it away to just anyone. I’m learning to keep my mouth shut and do my job.. you don’t know people’s intentions and one listening ear can be a running mouth. I’m learning to toughen up my emotions and learning to embrace them as well. Knowing my worth and respecting myself a little more is something I need to focus on.
My therapist said to me.. “You teach people how to treat you, if you are always there and you keep forgiving them for their bad behaviours, they will keep doing it”
She also said… “Your self worth will bring you to people. You attracted people by how you feel and present yourself.”
This is so relevant to me. I let people walk all over me because I’m afraid to loose them. But one thing we need to remember is that we have all we need inside of us. We can’t rely on someone to give you the happiness you so want. Happiness is something that comes within.
It’s going to be hard but I’m healing from the damage others have caused me and from myself who let it happen. I need to respect and love myself more!
Repeat after me… I am enough, I am loved and I am capable of anything.
Happy New Year!
I hope it brings you happiness and health. Let’s all be a little kinder to others and a lot more kinder to ourselves.
Lots of love and happiness
Alice xo
Alice Woodward 