Becoming an Adult

Once you realise that you are in control. The game changes. 

I think I have struggled coming to terms with being an adult. 

I think it can be such an adjustment. Your whole life you are being told what to do, how to do it, living by someone’s rules and beliefs. 

Then all of a sudden the spotlight is on you and you’re away from all that. 

You get to decide what’s next not someone else. 

I have always doubted myself and never truly believed in me. So it was hard for me to know am I making the right decisions and choices. 

Then I realised that actually there is no right or wrong to life- I have been guided and taught things but I don’t have to follow that if I don’t want to. 

I have always been looking for approval and validation. Am I doing a good job? Am I doing life right? 

Then I turned it around and realised none of us know what we are doing; we are blindly moving forward in hope we are doing the right thing. 

We learn from experience and lessons- good and bad. 

I started to see that I get to choose what I believe, I get to choose what I do? 

Instead of asking everyone of their approval I have started to ask myself for approval.

When I walk in a room I no longer look to see who likes me I look to see if I like them. 

I’m trying to see my worth and give myself permission to live it how I want. 

What do I want? What people do I want to associate with? What will make me happy? 

It only has to make sense to you. If it makes you happy do it. You will get judgement from anyone; especially people you didn’t think you would but this is your journey and as I have said in another post- people only meet you at their level of healing and maturity. Some people get scared of you healing because your changing and they are so used to the old version. Sometimes doing the same thing is comfortable and it’s familiar and people can’t understand why you would want more or even are scared for you because you are doing what they never could. 

I look at some negative comments said to me and I think in my head that’s you not healed and you are projecting all your fears onto me. They aren’t mine and I dare to live a life on my terms. 

Don’t invalidate someone else’s feelings just because you don’t understand them. 

It’s hard to know if you’re doing the right thing. However, I have started to ask myself- does this make me happy? If the answer is yes then do it. Your life isn’t gonna make sense to everyone. 

Some years are a chapter and you can change whenever you want. There isn’t a timeline. Live your life on your terms. Start asking yourself what you want and realise this is your time to create whatever you want. You are the adult now. If you want to do something but scared of being judged- just do it the worst is you fail and learn and important lesson.

Life is a bunch of lessons. Learn, discover, create, destroy and then discover some more! 

Lots of love and happiness 

Alice xo