Life Lessons and the struggle of being in your 20s

Do you ever just want to go back to when you were happy? To when things didn’t seem so difficult. (My current thoughts.) Bit of a depressing one but my blog is a safe place to discuss emotions. I feel we live in a day and age where we have to stiffen up and act like everything is okay. Put a smile on and pull your big girl pants up and deal with it.

What a year. Last year is a place I never want to go back to. It was not easy in the slightest. Mental health is really fucking hard and even harder for people to understand. It’s tiring. I feel that we have to work harder just to gain approval.

I’m usually really positive and you know I try so hard to stay positive because really that’s all have.

The mental health system is exhausting, the benefits system is frustrating and the job scene well that’s just a joke.

All these systems meant to help but just make you feeling more lost and confused. Being in your 20s is a horrible experience in my opinion. You get told you are young live your life but don’t over do it because you need to have a good career and make money; but don’t feel to sorry for yourself because no one wants that. Be strong, be kind, be available, be consistent, be fun, be sensible. You are an adult what are you doing!? You are a young adult have fun! It’s the most confusing and heart breaking experience.

Everyone things is so weird when I say I hate being my age. They all say don’t be silly and you will regret saying that but there is nothing enjoyable about it. The expectations are high.

To round this very negative post I want to end it positive. I want to start living for me this year. Start listening to what I want. While I know people only care with their opinions sometimes you need to make your own and say “what do I really want.”

I don’t want to be scared of my age anymore. I miss the person I was at 18 when I was so excited to be an adult and all the possibilities. I want her back and I’m really gonna try this year go get her!

Please feel free to message me about anything. Bit of word vomit but very well needed hopefully I can grow and this time next year look back and smile.

Lots of love and happiness

Alice Xoxo